[The question brings Alan up short, and makes him...almost believe, for the first time, because he has to wonder what kind of world they lived in that his family could have kept them apart.]
Because if I was a girl? Everything would have been different. My mother would never have tried to kill you. Matt would never have started stalking you...hell, maybe Jackson never would have asked Derek for the bite. He damn sure never would have come under Gerard's control, because I wouldn't have let it get that far. The minute my mother was dead I'd have stepped up to take charge. I'd have changed the Code...and we'd all have been safe, don't you see?
[He's a little lost in the fantasy of it, his gaze distant and his expression soft with something like hope, just thinking about it.]
My dad and I, we'd have stopped Deucalion in his tracks. We'd have beaten Jennifer Blake down long before so many people had died...we'd never have tried to give up the life, because we'd be helping people. We'd never have had to sacrifice ourselves to save our folks, Stiles would never have been possessed...we'd all be home and safe and happy.
[He sobers then, and that pain Allison works so hard to hide, that Scott-shaped hole she never lets him see...it's out there in Alan's face, raw and open and full of regret.]
And we'd be together. Because I never would have hurt anyone. I'd be...I'd be stronger. I'd be better. [He lowers his gaze and shakes his head, drawing a shaky sigh.] I'd never have let my own stupid mommy issues cost me the only good thing I've ever really had.
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Because if I was a girl? Everything would have been different. My mother would never have tried to kill you. Matt would never have started stalking you...hell, maybe Jackson never would have asked Derek for the bite. He damn sure never would have come under Gerard's control, because I wouldn't have let it get that far. The minute my mother was dead I'd have stepped up to take charge. I'd have changed the Code...and we'd all have been safe, don't you see?
[He's a little lost in the fantasy of it, his gaze distant and his expression soft with something like hope, just thinking about it.]
My dad and I, we'd have stopped Deucalion in his tracks. We'd have beaten Jennifer Blake down long before so many people had died...we'd never have tried to give up the life, because we'd be helping people. We'd never have had to sacrifice ourselves to save our folks, Stiles would never have been possessed...we'd all be home and safe and happy.
[He sobers then, and that pain Allison works so hard to hide, that Scott-shaped hole she never lets him see...it's out there in Alan's face, raw and open and full of regret.]
And we'd be together. Because I never would have hurt anyone. I'd be...I'd be stronger. I'd be better. [He lowers his gaze and shakes his head, drawing a shaky sigh.] I'd never have let my own stupid mommy issues cost me the only good thing I've ever really had.