[There's something in his voice that's raw and scraped and thin, an edge of the knife of pain that losing her gutted him with showing through. There's more he wants to say, but he can't force his mouth to make any more words right yet.
Maybe Erica will hate him. Maybe. Maybe she'll never speak to him again, and it'd break his heart if she didn't. He hopes it won't come to that, that Scott will be able to tell him how to fix it so the confrontation he's dreading with Erica won't happen, so that somehow she'll be okay and they can be one pack, whole and complete.
But Allison... He couldn't deal with letting her go again. It's an awful thing to admit, even just to himself - and he barely allows his thoughts to settle on it before he's trying to forget he thought it - but if he had to choose, if there were no options and no way to fix it, Allison would be the choice he made.]
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[There's something in his voice that's raw and scraped and thin, an edge of the knife of pain that losing her gutted him with showing through. There's more he wants to say, but he can't force his mouth to make any more words right yet.
Maybe Erica will hate him. Maybe. Maybe she'll never speak to him again, and it'd break his heart if she didn't. He hopes it won't come to that, that Scott will be able to tell him how to fix it so the confrontation he's dreading with Erica won't happen, so that somehow she'll be okay and they can be one pack, whole and complete.
But Allison... He couldn't deal with letting her go again. It's an awful thing to admit, even just to himself - and he barely allows his thoughts to settle on it before he's trying to forget he thought it - but if he had to choose, if there were no options and no way to fix it, Allison would be the choice he made.]