The hardest thing for me here was when my friends were hurt and there was nothing I can do.

[ This is a guess on her state, but he's not trying to pry her open. He's just talking. ]

Cassel. He was like a brother to me. I'd never known what it was like to love like family before. He was killed. And I tried to lock myself away. But the rage and the pain had nowhere to go, and I hurt someone. I killed someone.

And then, after that, I hurt myself. And I punished myself.

This Barge can be amazing. It can heal you and change you. But it hurts you at your heart. It strikes where you're weak. It's not easy to be here.