theresalwayshope | 24} so i stayed in the darkness with you...

[When the feed clicks on, Allison is visibly upset. She's also not in her cabin, as evidenced by her surroundings. Her eyes and nose are red: she's been crying, and recently, but she's deadly calm as she speaks.

She has to be, or else she's going to hurt someone. The feed isn't totally steady, because her hand is shaking, and in a rare occurrence, Duchess is nowhere to be seen.]

Isaac's in a coma.

[And this is the part of her new condition she wasn't prepared for, this wild fury and soul-deep grief all mixed up and so intense her free hand is just out of sight, balled into a fist, claws digging into her own palm so the pain will keep her from shifting. She's been like this since she found him over an hour ago, since she picked him up off the floor of his room and put him into bed...

Since the tears and pleading for him to wake up turned to animal snarls she couldn't control, and she glimpsed her transformed face in the mirror for the first time.

She's human now as her eyes well up again, but there's something clearly animal in the way she bares her teeth as she speaks.]

Anyone that comes near his cabin without my permission is getting their throat torn out.

[She can feel the beast rising, she doesn't dare risk more...abruptly, the feed goes dead to all but those on her private filters.]

[Extended Pack Filter]

That goes for you guys, too...just knock first, okay? I'm in Isaac's cabin, and I just...

[She trails off, her eyes flashing gold. Her jaw tenses, and fangs are visible just past her lips, her features shifting as she fights the rising change.]

I need some time to...calm down.

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You alright?

Edited (pick an icon gwen jeez) 2015-01-06 01:39 (UTC)

[There's a long, tense moment of no reaction from Allison before she finally, jerkily manages to shake her head in the negative.

She's not okay. She's extremely not okay, and her voice cracks as she speaks.]

Don't...you shouldn't come around me. I'm--I can stay put. Stay with him, that's easy and I can do that, but...I don't know if I can promise to do o-or not do anything else right now.

That's okay. You just need to try and stay calm, alright? It's okay to be scared, but Isaac's gonna be fine.

It's not okay. It's never okay.

[Maybe weakness is acceptable in the rest of the world, but not an Argent woman. It's never been okay, not since she was six years old and her mother stopped tolerating tears. Skinned knees, hurt feelings, she had to be a big girl and not a baby. She had to be strong, hard...she'd probably be a sociopath like her mother if not for Dad, encouraging her strength and allowing her to hold onto the heart that Victoria Argent tried to squeeze out of her.

Fear is weakness, and weakness is sometimes...safe, with the right people, but it is not okay. It's never okay.]

I know he'll be fine, I just...werewolf me doesn't get it.